Somewhere in the depths of feeling dirtier than I have ever felt before, frequently stressed, anxious and frustrated I found an odd sense of peace, a quiet mind, my heart became open. Stress lifted off my chest and from my face. It’s funny the places you will find calm and learn patience. You really can love and hate something in the same breath.
Escaping the endless honking and pollution I got clean in waterfalls, dipped a toe in The Ganges to be one step closer to enlightenment. I meditated in the jungle with monkeys swinging past, and stared out to the ocean further than my eyes could see. I pushed myself physically and mentally further than I have ever been before. I discovered a whole new ability within myself. Most importantly I discovered a way to connect with others that might help them see the world differently.
I prayed without religion, sometimes just to trust something I couldn’t control, and sometimes simply for my own sanity because it seemed to be long gone amongst the craziness of this country.
Travelling to India wasn’t about soul searching, it wasn’t necessarily about discovering anything at all. But something told me deep down a long long time ago that I needed to go there, so I said f*ck it, and I did. Maybe that was the only lesson I really went there to learn. When you suddenly realise so clearly that you can do something, that you are capable then go and do it! Maybe then all you are discovering is what was already there inside you.
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